A Father’s Love

I’ll never forget that moment
When I first laid eyes on my son.
Our firstborn, the one we’d waited for,
And he made us very proud.
I was at his mother’s side,
The tears flowed down our cheeks.

This miracle I was holding
I could never explain how formed.
And yet I know that God had said,
We are all fearfully and wonderfully made.
He was indeed a miracle from God.
As I stood there I whispered… “Thank you.”

Not too many hours later
As I cradled our newborn gift,
I looked into his quiet little face
And I asked him what he was going to be.
He laid there silently in my arms
His eyes closed in peaceful sleep.

I loved our wonderful gift from above
With a love I had not known.
I counted fingers and toes to see that all were there.
I hugged and kissed him, put his tiny hand in mine.
It was at that moment I at last awakened
To the most precious gift from God—His Son.

I would not—could not give that child for anyone.
Not a single soul is worthy.
How could God, who loves so much more than I
Give His Son’s life for me?
O great God, I at last perceive how much
Your heart was broken, that day at Calvary.

I began to ponder in my heart
How could there be a father anywhere
Who could not see the great sacrifice?
The tears flowed down my cheek again,
Our heavenly Father loves us so.

My Love, My America

How can I begin to express my innermost feelings concerning this beautiful young woman named America. She is my freedom, my liberty, my obsession. She fills me with passion when I hear her songs whispered delicately in my ears and celebrate her milestones with wild bombs bursting. I am immersed with sadness and pride as I remember her fighting patriot lovers selflessly offering their finest for her sovereignty.

How can mere words convey the feelings I have for this Madonna this Princess, the love of my life, the keeper of my torch. I trembled as I stood on lofty mountain top and looked beneath at her peaceful and serene valleys. I stared with silent admiration at her peaceful streams. I blush with pride as I see her cities standing tall and proud, her commerce unmatched, her will and determination unfettered as she stands alone many times against all others. I watch with envy as new ones flood her harbors and terminals eager to live just a glimpse of her glory. I am overwhelmed to see her government even at its worst greater than any other place on God’s earth.

I weep painfully, as though I had an opened wound when I see her banner burned , mistreated, disgraced. I see within the eyes of her tormentors the burning envy to know what every American knows – to feel and live and taste and breath as an American. Yet within my own heart I know the pride, I know the passion of being an American, one of hers, free to express those innermost thoughts that I’m unable to put words to.

To life, to liberty, to the pursuit of happiness and the evolution of her glory . . .America the beautiful, love of my heart, pearl of my passion, rapture of my soul, the definition of my very essence, my home sweet home.

Bring Her Back To Me

PREFACE:

In the Bible’s Old Testament, there is a verse that encourages all nations to return to worshipping God. 2 Chronicles 7:14 says, ” If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.”

Growing up in America is the greatest experience a person can enjoy. Just the thought of all the potential and possibilities that are avaiable – we are truly blessed.

But I must admit I am not quite so proud of the America I see today.

Things have changed through the years. Many have lost that “special heart” that Americans used to demonstrate so clearly. Our government is corrupted and crime and injustice is allowed to run without challenge throughout our streets and neighborhoods.

With a heavy heart I wrote the following, “Bring Her Back To Me.” I hope and pray that this will cause you to ponder the state of our beautiful country and to beseech God, on her behalf, to forgive her sins and heal her land.

BRING HER BACK TO ME

It’s my America, the land of the free and the home of the brave.

Just hearing the sound of that phrase brings warm remembrances of parades, cub scouts, and learning to honor the red, white, and blue with dignity and respect. I grew up as an American, something to be proud of, something to cause my head to be held a little higher.

Bombs bursting in air, bike riding in the park, rockets red glare, playing catch with Dad on the weekends. It is the outrageous Americana that we all grew up with. The fourth of July lived out daily across the waves of amber grain.

Give me your tired, your, poor . . . the Lady represented us well. Even in my young mind I conjured up visions of poor, starving immigrants rushing to the side rail of a transport ship to catch their first glance of her—Liberty—freedom incarnate. What unexplainable joy must have filled their being as they looked at her, memorizing each and every detail. What a remarkable picture they made as they stood there united, making a collection of sights and sounds and smells that would last a lifetime.

Many traveled with the knowledge that they’d never see family, friends, and home again. There was so much opportunity ahead and so much freedom to explore. There were so many obstacles overcome, and yet many still standing in the way. But it didn’t matter. It was America!

But as I’ve grown to manhood I’ve learned this is not my America at all.

My America is full of burdens, injustices, and depravation of liberties.

Somewhere in my heart I am ripped asunder by the reality of my America. The understanding of her shortcomings is a marring violation to my soul. It’s not the same as discovering that Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny are mere fables. It goes deeper than that – down to the embodiment of my pride and allegiance.

The once honest hustle and bustle of city life (men and women scurrying about to commerce etc.) has given way to dark and unspeakable deeds done in broad daylight. Even in the rural nucleus of my great land people spit upon the very essence of what I hold so dear and continue under the guise and protection of freedom and sweet liberty.

Her borders are now essentially closed—the ships are turned away. The harsh reality of a burgeoning economy and welfare class. The unthinkable cruelty of modern politicians feathering their nests and forgetting the fundamental representations they proclaimed so loudly on Election Day. So who cares about the ones who struggle for freedom from tyranny and injustice? Certainly not them.

Yes, I am disallusioned with my America. My dear God far removed, the very sanctity for life robbed from the cradle. The beauty of God’s blessed union dragged through the trenches of hell.

Yes, I am cynical. I am exasperated with the whole mess.

I want my America back. The same America I grew up with. The same America that welcomed the impoverished with open arms. The same America where I proudly gave two-fingered salutes to the passing “Old Glory.” I want to see the streets scrubbed clean with the hearts of men and women, boys and girls who love this land as I do. I want to see and read about my God in all the old familiar places. I want to hear the children speak his name before they begin their work each day.

Where has my beloved gone to? And whence can she return? Do not your eyes run fast with tears of pity as you look on dear Lady Liberty, scarred, tainted, stained with the excrement of her own inhabitants?

Enough, I cry. Polish her skin, light her torch. Bring back the glory that once was held in freedom’s cry. And let her children, her many children, be born without fear or trembling even of existence but rather come forth with resounding patriotism—I AM AN AMERICAN! I am free. I live in the home of the brave.

Please . . . bring back my America once again. Allow me to look into her eyes and behold her beauty one more time before I too perish.

Heart of Stone

No one looks only stares
No one loves no one cares.
It started very young
In spite the dues I paid;
The hatred grew inside
An ugly child was made.

The rage within the cage
The pain felt deep within
Can never be released
Will tear my world apart.
And then when all is done
My story will be known.
The violence gripped inside
Was just a heart of stone.

Captured feelings so stained
Imprisoned life so restrained
Placed the shackles on my soul
Forced me onto a dark road
Now my eyes can’t bear the light
My cavern is black as coal.

The rage within the cage
The pain felt deep within
Can never be released
Will tear my world apart.
And then when all is done
My story will be known.
The violence gripped inside
Was just a heart of stone.

Floating through this life
On waves of angry sea
Crushed beneath the dreams
Of all I ever wished to be.

From hell’s fires I’ll call your name
Through the halls of death and shame
Eternity can’t stop the guilt
But it don’t matter anymore.
All the good ones will live on
Still venting darkness from their core.

The rage within the cage
The pain felt deep within
Can never be released
Will tear my world apart.
And then when all is done
My story will be known.
The violence gripped inside
Was just a heart of stone.

This Woman, This Angel, My Mom

Verse 1
She was born in the old days
The country way
She never had very much
Raised ‘neath the pecan trees
And the preacher talkin’
‘bout God and His love.

She’d say son the old ways are good ways
They make you full of truth and grit
Honest in dealings
Straight forward in word
Just like I want you to be.

Verse 2
Between Mom and Pa and the Preacher
I raised up to know right from wrong
I faint at all the disappointment I brought
All the times I broke her heart.

You see I went my way when I turned seventeen
I still remember every tear she spilled
I had to sow my oats to this old cruel world
Find out how wise my Mama could be.

Chorus
I stopped by to see her
The other day
It had been way too long.
I know she was happy
To see her long lost son
I fell in her arms so strong
This woman, this angel, my Mom.

Verse 3
She told me of prayers and sleepless nights
An looking longingly out the door.
She held my hand so tight that it hurt
As she whispered me these words…

Son you have come home now
We’re complete
You don’t have to say a single thing
I’m thankful that the Lord
Has granted me
The prayer that filled my life.

Chorus
I stopped by to see her
The other day
It had been way too long.
I know she was happy
To see her long lost son
I fell in her arms so strong
This woman, this angel, my Mom.

Verse 4
The years went by
I watched her golden hair turn gray
It felt so good to see her smile
Baking pies for my children on Christmas Day
Memories beyond price.

When we laid her to rest
On a cold winter’s morn
It was the saddest day I knew
She was the strongest person I had ever met
I couldn’t bear to let her go
She’s in Your hands now, Lord.

Bridge
Now it’s been a while
I’ve had time to think
How many people’s lives
Did this, my Mama save?

Chorus
I stopped by to see her
The other day
It had been way too long.
I know she was happy
To see her long lost son
I fell on her grave so alone,
This woman, this angel, my Mom.